Never....again

You've helped me find a feeling,
Which I thought was lost,
Never to be found again

You've brought the sun back up,
Which I thought had set,
Never to rise again

You've helped me see the light,
Which I thought had been snuffed out,
Never to shine again

You've helped me gain the hope,
Which I thought was long gone,
Never to return again

You've helped me breathe the air,
Which I thought was poisoned,
Never to be pure again

You've helped me get on with life,
Which I thought had ended,
Never to resume again

For a little while

Been lost for so long

It felt good to be found

Been quiet for a while

It felt good to speak aloud

Been alone for so long

It felt good to be by your side

Been wandering for a while

It felt good to stop the ride

Even if it’s just for a little while

Been sleeping for ages

It felt good to be awake

Been in the dark for eternity

It felt good to see daybreak

Been crying for years

It felt good to smile

Been dead forever

It felt good to be alive,

Even if it’s just for a little while

Shards

Picking up the shards,

One at a time,

Putting them together

As if solving a puzzle,

Oblivious to pain,

the gnawed flesh,

or the trickle of blood,

The masterpiece

in the making

is just a broken mirror,

But all its pieces

need to fall in place,

So I can see myself,

One last time,

Before I’m greeted

by death itself

Lost Ship

The wind once

flapped the sails

And the horizon

could be seen

The sea was once

blue and alive

The waters below

ran quiet and deep

The sun once

led the day

While the moon

guarded the night

The birds once

flew true and free

Waiting again 

for the light to rise

The ship once

had a cheery crew

And the Captain smiled

at the wheel

The storm loomed

in the distance

Lying in wait

to hear the screams

The laughter once

filled the air

And the shore

never seemed too far

Once there was life

Now there be just souls

Under the same old skies

The same old stars

The Coffin Life

I wait in the dark,

Unflinching; catatonic,

Frozen or paralyzed?

All voices forgotten,

All faces blurred,

All memories faded,

All friends gone,

All hopes in vain,

All’s done being said,

All's ceased to exist,

All's lost or dead

Not a whisper of wind,

Not the slightest sound,

No chirps, no raindrops,

No rhythm of breaths,

No cold, no warmth,

No high, no low,

No hurries, no worries,

No places to go

I wait in the dark,

Unflinching; catatonic,

Frozen or paralyzed?

All that’s left

A tired soul,

A slowed rhythm,

A blurred memory,

An eternal night,

An endless dream,

A fading smile,

A lasting quiet,

A helpless sigh,

A losing hope,

A sinking heart,

A lost time,

is all that’s left

Unfinished

It was a matter of life and death,

Less of a game, more of a fight,

I put most pieces together,

But the puzzle was left unfinished

It was a good story,

A little fiction, a little truth,

With a beginning and a middle,

 But the book was left unfinished

It was more like music,

Some melody, some words,

I tried to make it rhyme,

But the song was left unfinished

It was also like rum and coke,

A little bitter, a little sweet,

I tried to gulp it down,

But the glass was left unfinished

Alas, it was like a circle,

An endless merry-go-round,

I started at a certain point,

But life was left unfinished

Back

The ire has returned

in those fiery eyes,

The compassion’s gone

along with worldly ties,

He rises from the ashes,

not a phoenix, but a vulture,

to destroy the present,

and along with, all future,

He smiles at the heavens,

Gods shudder at His sight,

They thought He was beaten,

But He’s back for a fight,

They’ve always struggled

to keep Him bound in chains,

Still, He walks amongst mortals

despite all fire and rains,

The light has been shunned,

Night beckons its black,

Hell’s gates have opened,

Beware, the Devil is back

Without a trail

I trust no one,
Except my shadow,
I hear no voices,
Apart from my own,
I cling to nothing,
But my angry soul,
I wander in oblivion,
Without a goal,
I breathe to survive,
But I fail to live,
I refuse to forget,
Let alone forgive,
I vow to cheat death,
And so I will,
I shall steal the time,
That claims to stand still,
The crux of the story,
Lies in how it ends,
Not in the way it's told,
Or the message it sends,
Then want me to change,
And so I shall,
But not in a way,
Wished by them all,
I will indeed be strong,
For now, I'm frail,
But I'll walk away alone,
Without leaving a trail

Falling walls

The congenial air,
is long gone,
I now breathe in
the sullen stench,
The hostile walls
close in,
They reek of fear
and all that loathes,
I look around
for some solace,
But all I find
is an empty space,
Then I wail in vain
at the falling walls,
They collapse in a heap
and so do my hopes,
I then awake
with reddened eyes,
Puzzled, bewildered,
I look around,
The walls still stand,
and the stench is gone
But I'm still alone
in a timeless misery,
I go back to sleep,
telling myself,
"The nightmare, for you,
isn't over yet."

Or is it?

I hear a voice,
Distant, yet familiar,
But is it a scream,
or a cry of pain?
Or am I asleep
and part of a dream?
It seems too real,
And sounds too close,
I think it's in pain,
Or am I wrong?
Or is it that
I'm not sane?
I hear it again,
And sit up in panic,
I find myself crying,
Are these tears?
Or is it that
to myself I'm lying?
I know the voice now,
It's an echo of my cry,
I sit alone and shocked,
Is this death?
Or is it a place
in which I'm locked?
I shut my eyes tight,
And cry myself to sleep,
I'm awoken by a voice again,
Distant, yet familiar,
But is it a scream,
or a cry of pain?

Not yet

Angered by the Gods,

Tempted by the Devil,

About to take a leap,

into the unseen

An evil sorcerer

is the world,

And I, his apprentice,

Enchanted by his cantrip,

Ready to go over

to the dark side,

To be one of them,

One among the shadows,

So here I surrender,

Or so they believe,

Because I still carry

a light in my heart,

Call it a tranquil flame

or a raging torch,

It shall never go out,

And even if it does,

For now I say,

not yet, not yet

An Everlasting Walk

It is an everlasting walk
as it always has been,
How far we go
remains to be seen
But stay by my side,
If I am lost, you guide,
Never ever let go
during the highs or the lows,
Don't stop being my light
leaving me alone to fight,
Be my sunrise, be my sunset,
Save the world in which we once met, 
Laugh with me, wipe my tears,
Journey with me through the years,
It is an everlasting walk
as it always has been,
How far we go,
remains to be seen

Ataraxia

Free of eternal anguish,
Free of a damned  fate,
Free to sail on endless waters,
Free to love; unable to hate  
Free of a moral abyss,
Free of ideals to save,
Free to walk till world's end,
Free to breathe; out of the grave
Free of reality and fiction,
Free of a helpless sigh,
Free to love till the end of time,
Free to live; unwilling to die

A Will

Withstanding time's test and trial 
an old pain stays in denial,
A helpless rage engulfed by fire
burning in a world of desire,
This tale seems to have no end,
This broken life may never mend,
The clock ticks, the times roll,
Then ensues a wait to free the soul,
There's still a hope amid all the sorrow
There's still a dream for another tomorrow
Amidst a miserable cold and quiet
there still resides a will to fight  

At The Window


I sit at the window
every morning
to see the subtle orange
rise in the east
And moments later,
lemon beams,
pure and free,
fill a dark room
but not the void in me


I sit at the window
every noon
to feel the scorn
of the scathing sun
But I still feel cold
and the air seems still,
morbid and quiet
Staying with me 
like an eternal fright


I sit at the window
every evening
bidding farewell
to the light
The crescendo rises
as the sun goes down
and the music dies
The only sound heard
is then that of sighs


I sit at the window
every night
to embrace a nightmare,
my friend and foe
And as it starts,
I look at the ceiling
to let out a cry
And wait for another day  
to come and pass by 

The World That Spins


The world that spins
in the sky like a top,
No matter what,
it'll never care to stop
The waves that rise
will never calm down
until they crash into rocks
and hear the pieces drown
The fire that hides
in the confines of our soul
will continue to burn
like a piece of coal
The time that flies
will not return again
and we will reminisce 
the love and the pain

I never dare


I never dare
to think of a world,
so dark and dismal, 
devoid of the light 
in your eyes
I never dare
to imagine roads,
so quiescent and cold,
left deserted,
abandoned by you 
I never dare
to breathe the air,
so dry and deathly,
foolishly oblivious
of your scent 
I never dare
to dream of a life,
so eerie, yet endless,
to be lived, endured
without you

Been a while


It has been a while
since I wrote for you
and told you
how I feel 
It has been a while 
since I touched you
and looked
for a kiss to steal
It has been a while 
since I held you close
and saw my world
in your eyes
It has been a while 
since I held your hand
and heard my heartbeats
amidst the sighs
It has been a while
since I told you
that you'll always 
stay mine
It has been a while
since I reminded you
that you'll always be
my Valentine

A chosen path


The fog of an old fear
that loomed over the sky
now seems to have lifted
The aquamarine landscape,
like an empty canvas, 
now awaits to be painted
The light of an undying hope
is now burning bright
with an unbridled flame
The colours of a faded life
are changing shades,
The picture is not the same
With the path chosen,
and a companion in tow,
the journey has begun
Time flies with every step
But there's no need to hurry,
There's no need to run

Happy New Year


When the clock struck twelve
my heart skipped a beat,
I heard them celebrate
while I walked a lonely street,
Then I felt cold
and the air had gone still,
But I told myself
I shall never lose the will,
The drums beat aloud 
somewhere far away,
I wished the night to end
to make way for the day,
I dreamt of her then
as I closed my eyes,
I was at peace for a moment
and I felt my soul rise,
I then heard her voice,
It was telling me to walk,
It told me not to fear
the needles of the clock,
I then opened my eyes 
to be greeted by a sunrise,
I doubted if it was morning
or a nightmare in disguise,
But I heard her voice again
as it rang in my ear,
I smiled as she wished me
a Happy New Year

As..

As helpless as a feather

on a lonesome street  

Letting the breeze

find its way,

As carefree as a rain drop

rolling down a window

Without a clue

where it will go next,

As cold as a silence

inside a prison called life 

Just waiting

for the sentence to end

He


He stands alone 
at a dark corner
Eyeing the ones
that love the light
They walk by
unaware of him  
He grins wide
with deadened eyes
He knows the right
He sees the wrong
He stops for a moment
and moves ahead
They look at him
with such disdain 
Waiting again
for his presence to fade
But he sure knows
that these shallow prayers    
Will go unanswered 
as they always do
Because the day
you pity the Devil
Is the day 
you choose to rue

The road


The road seems slippery
It's not raining though
Life's not been a friend
But nor has it been a foe
The sky seems bright
The clouds can't be seen
A sign of things to come
and not how they have been
The journey seems endless
The destination unknown
But I walk with her beside me
Without the fear of being alone
The present seems to promise
A future that will smile
We have just walked an inch
There is yet to go a mile 

Ghosts


The night of Christmas eve
I was haunted by ghosts,
Ghosts of the past,
Ghosts that will last,
Ghosts left behind,
Ghosts of the mind,
Ghosts of today,
Ghosts with a say,
Ghosts that guide,
Ghosts that abide,
Ghosts of tomorrow,
Ghosts of  my sorrow,
Ghosts yet to arrive,
Ghosts still to come alive,
The night of Christmas eve
I was haunted by ghosts

A shadow


By the shackles of love
to you I am bound
Like an inseparable shadow
I will always be around
A shadow that walks
A shadow that talks   
A shadow that oversees
A shadow that never leaves
A shadow that reappears
A shadow that can't stand your tears
A shadow that will never hide
A shadow that will be by your side
A shadow, devoid of fear
A shadow, like a silent seer
A shadow that won't perish
A shadow that you will cherish
A shadow, seen at night
A shadow, unafraid of the light
A shadow that resists
A shadow that exists
By the shackles of love
to you I am bound
Like an inseparable shadow
I will always be around

A day


Gather, the dark clouds,
austere and ominous,
Huddled together
like Satan's disciples,
Strike, the bolts of lightning,
feral and fierce,
Ripping and tearing 
like a rabid wolverine,
Echoes, the roaring thunder,
morbid and menacing,
Like a caged animal
about to be set loose,
Grows, the black night,
dark and devious,
Engulfing the world
like a sordid cloak
But then, all of a sudden,
Rises, a smiling sun,
bright and beckoning,
Vanquishing the dark
like a brave warrior
Wander, the yellow beams,
warm and welcoming,
To every dark corner
craving for light
Arrives, a beautiful morning,
resurgent and resurrected,
Promising a day
after every night
always..

Then you arrived


I had a stench of melancholy,
Unknown to the fragrance
of  joy and mirth,
But then you arrived
like a breath of fresh air,
And helped me realise
my life's worth
My soul was set afire,
To ashes and dust
I would've turned,
But then you arrived
like a blessed rain,
And a second chance 
at life I earned
I was a lonely bird
afraid to spread my wings
I never even dreamt to fly,
But then you arrived
like a beautiful phoenix,
And by your side 
I soared into the sky
I was fascinated with death,
I had befriended my pain,
Oblivious to the beauty of life,
But then you arrived
to kiss away my tears,
And put an end 
to the eternal strife  

Always


At times I wish
for a morning,
With you by my side,
Where I see you sleep
with my eyes open wide, 
Where the hair on your face
hide a faint smile,
And I wonder at my angel
for a little while,
Where you awake in my arms 
and I seal your lips again,
 I see you at peace
without a shred of pain,
Where I start to leave 
and you hold me tight,
And I look into your eyes
to find a promise to fight,
Where I vow to return
with a silent sigh,
And it dawns on you 
that I'll never say goodbye,
Where I turn back again
to embrace my dear, 
And promise to be the ghost
who'll always reappear

All I ask


All I ask for is a while
that lasts forever,
All I ask for is a moment
that freezes in time,
All I ask for is a tale
that never has to end,
All I ask for is a promise
that never has to break, 
All I ask for is a sun
that never has to set,
All I ask for is a warmth
that never has to go away,
All I ask for is a peace
that never leaves your eyes,
All I ask for is a smile
that never dies

Seasons


It  began in summer
under the burning sun,
When came along an angel
who spread her wings,
I felt her shadow 
enshroud my soul, 
Sparing me the heat
of the burning coal
Then arrived the rains
and doused the fire,
Or were those her tears
that she shed for me?
But then she smiled
brighter than the moon,
And the pain bid me adieu
along with the monsoon
Then came autumn
to harvest our love,
She stayed by my side
and held me tight,
She promised me then 
that she'll never let go,
I trusted my angel,
but not my time though
Then arrived winter
with a cold vengeance,
Like an unfair foe
harsh and brutal,
But she kept me warm
and helped me survive,
The nights grew longer
though I still felt alive
I await springtime now
with a smile on my face,
I know she'll be there
every moment of a day,
To believe it now 
I don't need a reason,
That she'll be there
in every season

Tomorrow


The trying times,
brutal, brazen, brash,
take their toll on me
It's just your smile,
sweet, solemn, serene,
that always sets me free   
The unstoppable storm,
destructive, demonic, demented,
plays a deadly game
It's just your thought,
breathtaking, benign, beautiful,
that helps me weather the same
The will to survive,
frantic, fearless, foolish,
battles today's sorrow
It's just a wait,
hell-bent, hopeful, heartfelt,
for yet another tomorrow