He


He stands alone 
at a dark corner
Eyeing the ones
that love the light
They walk by
unaware of him  
He grins wide
with deadened eyes
He knows the right
He sees the wrong
He stops for a moment
and moves ahead
They look at him
with such disdain 
Waiting again
for his presence to fade
But he sure knows
that these shallow prayers    
Will go unanswered 
as they always do
Because the day
you pity the Devil
Is the day 
you choose to rue

The road


The road seems slippery
It's not raining though
Life's not been a friend
But nor has it been a foe
The sky seems bright
The clouds can't be seen
A sign of things to come
and not how they have been
The journey seems endless
The destination unknown
But I walk with her beside me
Without the fear of being alone
The present seems to promise
A future that will smile
We have just walked an inch
There is yet to go a mile 

Ghosts


The night of Christmas eve
I was haunted by ghosts,
Ghosts of the past,
Ghosts that will last,
Ghosts left behind,
Ghosts of the mind,
Ghosts of today,
Ghosts with a say,
Ghosts that guide,
Ghosts that abide,
Ghosts of tomorrow,
Ghosts of  my sorrow,
Ghosts yet to arrive,
Ghosts still to come alive,
The night of Christmas eve
I was haunted by ghosts

A shadow


By the shackles of love
to you I am bound
Like an inseparable shadow
I will always be around
A shadow that walks
A shadow that talks   
A shadow that oversees
A shadow that never leaves
A shadow that reappears
A shadow that can't stand your tears
A shadow that will never hide
A shadow that will be by your side
A shadow, devoid of fear
A shadow, like a silent seer
A shadow that won't perish
A shadow that you will cherish
A shadow, seen at night
A shadow, unafraid of the light
A shadow that resists
A shadow that exists
By the shackles of love
to you I am bound
Like an inseparable shadow
I will always be around

A day


Gather, the dark clouds,
austere and ominous,
Huddled together
like Satan's disciples,
Strike, the bolts of lightning,
feral and fierce,
Ripping and tearing 
like a rabid wolverine,
Echoes, the roaring thunder,
morbid and menacing,
Like a caged animal
about to be set loose,
Grows, the black night,
dark and devious,
Engulfing the world
like a sordid cloak
But then, all of a sudden,
Rises, a smiling sun,
bright and beckoning,
Vanquishing the dark
like a brave warrior
Wander, the yellow beams,
warm and welcoming,
To every dark corner
craving for light
Arrives, a beautiful morning,
resurgent and resurrected,
Promising a day
after every night
always..

Then you arrived


I had a stench of melancholy,
Unknown to the fragrance
of  joy and mirth,
But then you arrived
like a breath of fresh air,
And helped me realise
my life's worth
My soul was set afire,
To ashes and dust
I would've turned,
But then you arrived
like a blessed rain,
And a second chance 
at life I earned
I was a lonely bird
afraid to spread my wings
I never even dreamt to fly,
But then you arrived
like a beautiful phoenix,
And by your side 
I soared into the sky
I was fascinated with death,
I had befriended my pain,
Oblivious to the beauty of life,
But then you arrived
to kiss away my tears,
And put an end 
to the eternal strife  

Always


At times I wish
for a morning,
With you by my side,
Where I see you sleep
with my eyes open wide, 
Where the hair on your face
hide a faint smile,
And I wonder at my angel
for a little while,
Where you awake in my arms 
and I seal your lips again,
 I see you at peace
without a shred of pain,
Where I start to leave 
and you hold me tight,
And I look into your eyes
to find a promise to fight,
Where I vow to return
with a silent sigh,
And it dawns on you 
that I'll never say goodbye,
Where I turn back again
to embrace my dear, 
And promise to be the ghost
who'll always reappear

All I ask


All I ask for is a while
that lasts forever,
All I ask for is a moment
that freezes in time,
All I ask for is a tale
that never has to end,
All I ask for is a promise
that never has to break, 
All I ask for is a sun
that never has to set,
All I ask for is a warmth
that never has to go away,
All I ask for is a peace
that never leaves your eyes,
All I ask for is a smile
that never dies

Seasons


It  began in summer
under the burning sun,
When came along an angel
who spread her wings,
I felt her shadow 
enshroud my soul, 
Sparing me the heat
of the burning coal
Then arrived the rains
and doused the fire,
Or were those her tears
that she shed for me?
But then she smiled
brighter than the moon,
And the pain bid me adieu
along with the monsoon
Then came autumn
to harvest our love,
She stayed by my side
and held me tight,
She promised me then 
that she'll never let go,
I trusted my angel,
but not my time though
Then arrived winter
with a cold vengeance,
Like an unfair foe
harsh and brutal,
But she kept me warm
and helped me survive,
The nights grew longer
though I still felt alive
I await springtime now
with a smile on my face,
I know she'll be there
every moment of a day,
To believe it now 
I don't need a reason,
That she'll be there
in every season

Tomorrow


The trying times,
brutal, brazen, brash,
take their toll on me
It's just your smile,
sweet, solemn, serene,
that always sets me free   
The unstoppable storm,
destructive, demonic, demented,
plays a deadly game
It's just your thought,
breathtaking, benign, beautiful,
that helps me weather the same
The will to survive,
frantic, fearless, foolish,
battles today's sorrow
It's just a wait,
hell-bent, hopeful, heartfelt,
for yet another tomorrow

The abstract


A thirst for the waters
that run too deep,
Waters that kill,
Waters that stay still,
Waters that tease,
Waters that freeze
A search for moments
that can last a lifetime,
Moments that believe,
Moments that never leave,
Moments that stay,
Moments that find a way
A belief in a time
that never stands still,
A time that will wait,
A time I won't hate,
A time that won't fly,
A time that won't lie 
A love for a life
that seems dream-like,
A life that smiles,
A life that beguiles,
A life that has a shine,
A life that was never mine  

The only


You are the only solace
in this catastrophic life,
The only happiness
in a sea of sorrows,
You are the only quiet
amidst the worldly noises,
The only smile
on a deadened face,
You are the only hope
in defeated eyes,
The only warmth
in the cold of reality,
You are the only strength
inside a weakened soul,
The only peace
in a restless life,
You are the only one
my today, my tomorrow,
The only beginning 
without an end

A sleep


In just a few moments,
I had a sleep 
A sleep that was eternal
A sleep that was awaited
A sleep, a serendipity
neither destined, nor fated
A sleep devoid of dreams 
A sleep devoid of delusions
A sleep, not about fantasies 
or amusing illusions
A sleep that left a bliss
A sleep that left its trace
A sleep that gave me peace
seeing the peace on her face
In just a few moments,
I had a sleep

The ceaseless


A tempest that never ceases,
tumultuous, torrid,  turbulent
An irate wave
trying to sweep away sanity
A yearning that never stops,
desperate, devious, devilish
A starving heart
dying to devour the mind
A laughter that never ends,
scorching, scathing, scornful 
A relentless turmoil 
promising a bitter end 
A hope that never dies
perseverant, persistent, perpetual
An endless road
waiting to be tread upon

Just


It is  just your thought
that I hold on to
Keeping myself from drowning
in the deep waters of misery
It is just your scent
that I try to remember
Keeping away a deathly stench
that lurks in the air
It is just your eyes
that I think of as daybreak
Keeping away a nightmare
that is your absence
It is just your love
that I cherish each moment
Keeping away the thought
of a life devoid of you

A melody


The old melody of life
plays an ironic tune
Hitting every single note
With palpable pain
This quiet, dark symphony 
narrates a story
The drums beat aloud
with nothing to gain
The rhythm slows down
feigning a finish
Only to rise again
in front of widened eyes
The music keeps playing
for what seems like ages
Mesmerizing both
the fool and the wise 
The crescendo rises
to deceive them again
The audience smiles wryly
sensing an end that nears
The show is almost over
An applause awaits 
But what drowns the last note
is the cries and the tears

A day at a time


At the crack of dawn,
Sitting at the window
Watching a new day being born
Another day to love you
I know that this ecstasy
is not because of the festive galore
But thanks to a divine presence
that I never felt before
I vow to hold on to it
as tight as I can
Taking each day at a time
devoid of a plan
The festival of lights
never seemed so bright
I don't know why
But this feels right

Adieu


Stranded alone at the sea
Left in the lurch forever
Wondering when the journey ended
Watching death begin its march
The escape of a helpless sigh
is now the only sound to be heard
The soul is ready to be set free
I wave goodbye to it with glee 
As this is the end of an eternal strife
And thus, with a smile, I bid adieu to life

The flight


For some a legend
For some a story
It has lived in fables
but in all its glory
It is one of its kind
The one that flies into the light
With its eye on the horizon
Ready to take a flight
The fire will engulf the bird
Burning it down to the ground
Some think of it as fate
But what goes, comes around
By the start of the day
and the end of the night
It will rise again from the ashes 
Ready to take a flight

Rid of the fear


Seeing the fear in your eyes
is what I fear the most
But I need to tell you something 
from the bottom of my heart
Some things will never end
But this sure is a start
For all we know, 
this seems like a reverie
But the truth will always be
that what we have is for real
These two worlds will co-exist 
And that is a promise, that is a deal 
But if someone has to get hurt,
I will make sure it is me
But deep inside, I know that with you
even those wounds will heal
So, my dearest one,
I hope I was loud enough
For you to hear
Don't you ever forget
I'm always there at every step
to help you get rid of your fear 

And again 


I've been trying to battle the odds
Escaping the wrath of the Gods
I might be struck down with vengeance 
Only to get back to my feet again 
I've been walking down a maddening lane
Trying my best to stay sane
I might  lose myself on this path
Only to be found again  
I've been screaming aloud since ages
At the demons and the sages
My voice may die in a while 
Only to be heard again
I've been trying to take a final stand
I claim neither the seas nor the land
Like a mirage that will cease to exist
Only to be seen again

A morning..


I look at the morning sky in wonder
And it  has never looked so clear before,
The melody of the birds
has never sounded this sweet before,
The light orange rising in the east
has never brought such warmth before, 
The tantalising cold  breeze of daybreak
has never greeted me so happily before,
But I wonder when the darkness ceased, 
I wonder where the clouds vanished,
I wonder when the rain stopped,
I wonder when the storm ran its course,
But I just hope I am not still asleep,
I just hope it is not still dark out there,
I hope this is not just a dream
in the stillness of the night 
which I think has ended

Not another time..


Here I sit in solitude,
Accompanied by your thought alone
And I know there won't be another time
To admit how much I love you
Here I sit in wonderment,
Wishing that you would be here 
And I know there won't be another time
To hold you close to me
Here I sit in disbelief,
Convincing myself of being happy at last
And I know there won't be another time
To thank you for being mine
Here I sit in delirium,
Thinking that the day is just too bright
And I know there won't be another time
To get lost in the dark of your hair
Here I sit in fear,
Afraid of losing you forever
And I know there won't be another time
To breathe my last in your arms 
Here I sit in euphoria,
Remembering how much you love me
And I know there won't be another time
For you and me

Still..

The deep blue sea fools us all
With its ethereal calm in the middle
But still its angry waves
Crash into the helpless rocks at shore
The ghosts of lightning fool us all
With their ephemeral presence
But still the raging bolts
Bring down proud mountains to ashes
The stream of tears fools us all
With its strength to battle the sorrows
But still the drops of sadness
Can drown a giant to death
The sound of laughter fools us all
With its endless stand against silence
But still its maddening echoes
Can make a lover go insane

Nevertheless

It has been ages since my wait in the dark 
A wait for the light to find me again 
But nevertheless, 
I will wait for the divine morning

The cold air does not hurt the skin 
As much as the silence hurts the soul 
But nevertheless, 
I will wait for the familiar sound of life

The snake of oblivion slithers towards me 
Or maybe it is my imagination 
But nevertheless, 
I will wait for a fight to exist

The quiet of loneliness screams out 
Trying to drown my heartbeats, 
But nevertheless, 
I will wait for her laughter to be heard again

The stench of death lurks nearby 
Reaching out to engulf the fragrance of life 
But nevertheless,  
I will wait to be revived by her scent again

The night tries to put me to sleep 
Promising an end to the eternal pain 
But nevertheless, 
I will wait for hope to wake me up again

So far..


A tantalising dream so far from coming true,
A cryptic code so far from being broken,
An agonising scream so far from being heard,
An unknown reason so far from being understood,
An unrequited love so far from being returned,
A comforting warmth so far from being around,
A miserable life so far from being lived
A lost friend so far from being found

There seems..


There seems to be an old memory,
Like a morning dewdrop on a blurred window,
There happens to be a familiar lane,
That I can't tread on anymore
There is a deafening cry of pain,
That has been reverberating since years,
There is a truth that I know of,
The silence left by which can still be heard  
There is a smile that I wonder at,
As it won't be found again,
There is a tear I look at in awe,
As it will never really dry,
There is a beautiful face,
That will never be forgotten,
There is a bright, sunny morning,
That I will never wake up to beside her 

Amidst it all..

Amidst the stench of melancholy,

A search for the scent of happiness,

Amidst the cacophony of cerebral chaos,

A search for the sound of heartbeats

Amidst the cries of agony,

A search for a soothing silence,

Amidst a crowd of strangers,

A search for that special friend

Amidst the dust that never settles,

A search for a clear vision,

Amidst an endless, Kafkaesque nightmare,

A search for an unfinished dream

Amidst the smoke that never clears,

A search for the fire that started it,

Amidst an unending, unforgiving life,

A search for death to set me free

A state of mind..


The old times, full of bliss and rapture,
Torment my present with a burning rage, 
The eyes close and the tears run down,
But the fire continues to burn away


The avalanche of  dreams crashing down,
Is the only sound that I hear these days,
Nightmares reign over my soul in the dark,
Death invites with open arms, for a fatal embrace


Tempted to give in, but not lost yet,
Judgment day still seems at a distance,
Leaving this abysmal world is not a choice,
I still need to complete my life sentence

A compass that points..                                         

                                                                                                                                     

With a compass that points nowhere,

Devoid of a direction to head in,

Devoid of a destination to reach,

Devoid of time that I may run out of,

In the middle of oblivion, seeking the unseen                                                                                     

Not a soul to guide me through the journey,

I must journey ahead is all I know,

Across the skies and the oceans,

Lies something that remains to be whispered in my ears,

I revel in this insane mystery though

“Your doom might be near”, say the winds,

I pay heed to no one, not even the gods,

I walk through the sands of time, lost in the same,

But the quest to find the unknown will never cease,

I walk through death to reach out to life, against all odds